procrastination halted…finally!

As I get older I realise that loss is something I need to come to terms with. It is a fact of life; what I have control over is how I respond to these losses.
My Mum died just over a year ago, after a three day cancer diagnosis, it shook my world but she taught me well how to travel this journey called life.
One thing I have realised is I want to do life differently going forward, I know I no longer want to continue on the constant merry go round of work, spend and slog, only to repeat it all over again the next day.
I am getting off that merry go round and intend doing things differently. I leave the NHS in 83 days. Jeff left work a month ago and we will finally take some ‘time out’, off that merry go round.

I have booked to do my yoga teacher training but I have loved the past year learning about the yogic way of life. Life is changing, today is what I know I have and whatever we are given we will make the most of it, but I definate;y feel that we only have this moment, now.

Art and other things

The past few months have been a far more creative time in my life, a lot of learning and trying to find out what I like.

I did some sewing through soul comfort ( Brave Girls club) and have learnt art journalling. Now I am trying to learn to draw, I like the whimsy , non realistic look best as that fits with the type of mixed media I do and currently I am doing The Boot series by Christy Tomlinson , looking at learning to draw figures and clothing, especially boots.

I am also doing Jane Davenports’ beginner classes in drawing and art journalling, Draw Happy and Supplies me

below are some of the pieces I have done recently and they are up as a record for me as hopefully I progress and can look back at how naive these pieces are.

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Life is always changing…

It has been a few years and yet always feels such a short time between blogs… Mia and Jessie are 6 , Jessie has a new sister Tiajna Lily Grace… And I was at the birth… Amazing. Also Grace had a baby ,Brooke Isabella and I was also at her birth and cut her cord too. Amazing watching  grandchildren be born.

Maddie qualified as a nurse and works in Paeds A&E. Gracie is due to finish her degree in June .

I started my HV training last September and it is flying by – a full on course, but am learning so much. Safeguarding is a large part but there are many good days too , although it certainly makes me question my parenting styles… 

I have really started learning to draw and paint via an online course, it incorporates all the things I love about reflection on life, quotes, positive affirmations as well as mixed media art – I really enjoy it and would love to learn it well enough to sell my art – maybe it is a thing I do when I retire ! 

family update

life flies by…we take little notice and maybe we need to slow down to make life slow down a bit…I love the poem by WH Davies…What is this life if we are too busy to stop and stare… so true but hard to remember sometimes.

so since dad died which is over 2 years ago now we have a new addition to the family , Tiajna Lily Grace who is Melanies 2 nd daughter.

Grace is due in November.


Dad died , alone. The date given was 6/4/10…but maybe he died before that.At this moment we still do not have a cause of death.
I feel such a mix of emotions…… always as the oldest, I get into efficiency mode, trying to get everything done that needs to be done.
With Gran and Grandad that was easier than this. Dad was only 66 and difficult to get into the deeper layers to know what he felt about things or people.


I have finished work for a year in order to finish my MSc. It feels really good to take some time out and means that I see friends and family more as I am stressing less about all the chores.I have been chasing my tail for nearly 19 years now and had to put the brakes on and realsie there is more to life than money and the power of being at the top of your game….the difference now is that I know I can do anything I set my mind to; for the girl that left school with 3 O Grades I think I have proved myself enough……….and I am not sure that any of it matters, only people matter.
this year has held a couple of big events – I climbed Ben nevis and went on a cruise – wow to both.
Christmas is coming and it is going to be great…I am going to make lots of bits because I have time to.
Gracie has just got back from Sierra Leone and has her new car courtesy of Grandad, she goes off to Uni next year and then all my babies have flown the nest….although funnily enough they never fly far or for long….I hoped to vreate a place like Belle Vue was for us that feels like home to them…and I think where we are has the makings of that.
Maddie has started her nursing course and is loving it…..she will make a fantastic nurse and ensure that Mia has a wonderful life.
mel is thinking of coming back from Somerset, she has finally got rid of the loser she was with and hopefully will start her life…. I was 25 when I started mine properly, so its never too late.
Jeff and me are just great, I love being with him and I hope we are given the time to grow old together.

7 years ago

This time 7 years ago, we were all shell shocked as Grandad had died and it was the end of life as we knew it.
It is like happened yesterday and I still cannot believe it.
Whereever you are Grandad, I hope you are happy and can look down on us.
We love you still and no day goes by without you coming into the conve